Watership

i thought i'd seen it all before.
beside a streetlamp; cold as ice.
clinging on its four feet; a rat. i looked at it
for a full minute.
it scrambled off.
i stood out for a while, trying to understand
the strange texture of this place.
jagged waters, brilliant moonbeams.
everything was electrified, intensified.
he led me by the hand, slowly winding his fingers through mine.
tingling, river sharp senses. i felt together,
yet alone. i didnt know where i was going.
i didnt even know where i was.
who are you? i had asked, my heart a strange sense of wariness.
i am Winter, you reply, your lips a faint touch of a snow drop.

Stare You Down

because i couldnt find you in a single step
i retreat

because the world wont wait for us
i admit

because i thought you were gone
i forget

because there wasnt a silver lining
i regret

because i wanted you so badly
i reminisce

now i look back and miss you
i forgive

Warning

3 o'clock in the morning
clothes flapping in the wind
late afternoon sun

edgy cracking above the ledge
north wind of the moor
we're tied up against this place

two invisible rising stakes
waiting for atmospheric pressure
to dampen again

8 o'clock in the evening
red skies in front of our eyes
shepherd's delight

Dismental

i swear i've heard your name
a thousand times before
lost in echoing depths of my mind
empty decks of ocean beached upon the shore

rumbling like distant thunder
i cry like the rain
the stranger is me

running on shallow empty
twilight of faded memories
coming back to haunt me
in places i've never known before

im one of the many faces
hidden behind masks
faces of safe contempt in large crowds
lost in a sea of my own confusion
you would see me as ordinary
i would see me as gone

but there was never an honest word
seas of faces and crowded images
sandy features and messed up paint
dripping from side to side with wetness
from the flooding rain of my memory
erasing you, others, everyone, me
away, away
away from this room in my soul
disfiguring names and faces
configuring emptiness

bright city lights
they surround me
i slowly learn how to breathe

I wake up.

El Inicio

burning live wires down my throat

steady your breathing;

here it comes again.

Dissolve

living and breathing happy endings
just a dream away
from where we started
like taking a coin
and tossing it up in the air
only to watch it fall back down
and catch it again
back to square one
where things stay somewhat the same
but lay there differently
like the toss had changed it whole
rush of air meeting with one side
force on the other
all slowly coming down to a standstill
the beginning
thats all we need to know
because in the end
we'll always return to where we started;
nothingness

i somehow found you again
cracks of easy steps
round crooked bends and up broken ledges
where i've become my own stranger
but when i did find you
vast oceans stood roaring between us
waves drowned my cries towards you
carrying my voice far out into the wild
and when my last breath was used
you still had not turned
so i stood my ground
and the oceans turned to mountains
mountains to grassland
grassland to deserts
and you never heard me
for a second i felt so free
and i fell through the cracklines of the neverchanging distance
i had already lost myself