El Inicio

burning live wires down my throat

steady your breathing;

here it comes again.

Dissolve

living and breathing happy endings
just a dream away
from where we started
like taking a coin
and tossing it up in the air
only to watch it fall back down
and catch it again
back to square one
where things stay somewhat the same
but lay there differently
like the toss had changed it whole
rush of air meeting with one side
force on the other
all slowly coming down to a standstill
the beginning
thats all we need to know
because in the end
we'll always return to where we started;
nothingness

i somehow found you again
cracks of easy steps
round crooked bends and up broken ledges
where i've become my own stranger
but when i did find you
vast oceans stood roaring between us
waves drowned my cries towards you
carrying my voice far out into the wild
and when my last breath was used
you still had not turned
so i stood my ground
and the oceans turned to mountains
mountains to grassland
grassland to deserts
and you never heard me
for a second i felt so free
and i fell through the cracklines of the neverchanging distance
i had already lost myself

Love Is The Greatest Illusion

we are two cars colliding
heading different ways
we are sidewalks and road signs
a perfect company
we are beaches and traffic
looming, intertwined
we are two foreign languages
conversing with a flame

we are two hills of snow and sand
caving in to sink
we are faces of love and shame
no compatibility
we are stars, we are sunrise
together in the sky
we build bridges and burn rivers
scalding the ones we love

"I Love You"

many things i will never understand
when we feel as if valleys are forming
where there once was green flat land
mountains and hard stones conforming

many things i will not know
when rivers flow past us at such a speed
which pushes us to follow
that never showed a need

some things i try to learn
how you make the sun dance and sing
and at the end of the day i yearn
for the music only you can bring

something i cant live without
you are like an oxygen supply
and waiting for rain in hopeless drought
just when i think i can fly

and soon this world goes too soon
and it finally collapses all around me
i hear you tell me what you said last june
that made me all i wanted to be

Sonnet 713

as it begins again, slowly reeling
walking in the misty light of the day
was where i heard the passing of healing
touching my face, rested upon to lay
the unsaid truths that the world is cast on
slowly fading away; too soon to see
or touch or realise that it has been gone
and it was receeding away to be
once again lost in the unreeling mourn
a small ripple from the mess of my mind
that had become softer than the moonlight
which so often appears too hard to find
through a web of silhouettes in the night
and i walked through the never-ending road
of events that seem bigger than my load.

Separation Ocean

well, look who's dying now
when you told me everything was

and miles across shoreline
the faultline cracked beneath me
and you told me time will catch up

showing me all around
the blackened illusion of
mid-west skies and my sleepless mondays

but you told me
that love is the greatest illusion
we pretended not to see

well, look who's dying now
when i told you everything was

when i didnt know how to love you anymore









i dont know how to live without you anymore