First Time

people this is for my giver project. lemme know your thoughts on this. thankya.

seeping into a darker world
water fills your chest and lungs
and you feel ready to burst

i've always liked serenity
(who doesnt?)

and innocence
something i've wanted to keep
but thrown away instead

or maybe lost

and lying face down
rush of air
strength in the wind
all is still

except for a new feeling
creeping in my chest
feeling ready to burst

suffering

and i've lost my innocence

slowly
i crawl back and try and grasp the feeling
of how its like not to know this
not to know anything

except i just crawl deeper
grasping truth

for the first time
life's a pain
not worth living

seeing through the darkness of the maze
i struggle
yet the journey seems easier

i struggle a little bit more