emotive unstable
you're like an unwinding cable car
listening for voices
but its the choices that make us who we are
go your own way
even seasons have changed
just burn those new leaves over
so self absorbed
you seem to ignore the prayers that have already come about
this is the correlation
of salvation and love
dont drop your arms
i'll guard your heart
with quiet words i'll lead you on
backing away from the problem of pain
you've never had a home
you've been misguided
you're hiding in shadows for so very long
dont you believe
that you've been deceived
that you're no better than
the hair in your eyes
it never disguise
what you're really thinking of
this is the correlation
of salvation and love
dont drop your arms
i'll guard your heart
with quiet words i'll lead you on
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
Watership
i thought i'd seen it all before.
beside a streetlamp; cold as ice.
clinging on its four feet; a rat. i looked at it
for a full minute.
it scrambled off.
i stood out for a while, trying to understand
the strange texture of this place.
jagged waters, brilliant moonbeams.
everything was electrified, intensified.
he led me by the hand, slowly winding his fingers through mine.
tingling, river sharp senses. i felt together,
yet alone. i didnt know where i was going.
i didnt even know where i was.
who are you? i had asked, my heart a strange sense of wariness.
i am Winter, you reply, your lips a faint touch of a snow drop.
beside a streetlamp; cold as ice.
clinging on its four feet; a rat. i looked at it
for a full minute.
it scrambled off.
i stood out for a while, trying to understand
the strange texture of this place.
jagged waters, brilliant moonbeams.
everything was electrified, intensified.
he led me by the hand, slowly winding his fingers through mine.
tingling, river sharp senses. i felt together,
yet alone. i didnt know where i was going.
i didnt even know where i was.
who are you? i had asked, my heart a strange sense of wariness.
i am Winter, you reply, your lips a faint touch of a snow drop.
Stare You Down
because i couldnt find you in a single step
i retreat
because the world wont wait for us
i admit
because i thought you were gone
i forget
because there wasnt a silver lining
i regret
because i wanted you so badly
i reminisce
now i look back and miss you
i forgive
i retreat
because the world wont wait for us
i admit
because i thought you were gone
i forget
because there wasnt a silver lining
i regret
because i wanted you so badly
i reminisce
now i look back and miss you
i forgive
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Warning
3 o'clock in the morning
clothes flapping in the wind
late afternoon sun
edgy cracking above the ledge
north wind of the moor
we're tied up against this place
two invisible rising stakes
waiting for atmospheric pressure
to dampen again
8 o'clock in the evening
red skies in front of our eyes
shepherd's delight
clothes flapping in the wind
late afternoon sun
edgy cracking above the ledge
north wind of the moor
we're tied up against this place
two invisible rising stakes
waiting for atmospheric pressure
to dampen again
8 o'clock in the evening
red skies in front of our eyes
shepherd's delight
Monday, September 14, 2009
Dismental
i swear i've heard your name
a thousand times before
lost in echoing depths of my mind
empty decks of ocean beached upon the shore
rumbling like distant thunder
i cry like the rain
the stranger is me
running on shallow empty
twilight of faded memories
coming back to haunt me
in places i've never known before
im one of the many faces
hidden behind masks
faces of safe contempt in large crowds
lost in a sea of my own confusion
you would see me as ordinary
i would see me as gone
but there was never an honest word
seas of faces and crowded images
sandy features and messed up paint
dripping from side to side with wetness
from the flooding rain of my memory
erasing you, others, everyone, me
away, away
away from this room in my soul
disfiguring names and faces
configuring emptiness
bright city lights
they surround me
i slowly learn how to breathe
I wake up.
a thousand times before
lost in echoing depths of my mind
empty decks of ocean beached upon the shore
rumbling like distant thunder
i cry like the rain
the stranger is me
running on shallow empty
twilight of faded memories
coming back to haunt me
in places i've never known before
im one of the many faces
hidden behind masks
faces of safe contempt in large crowds
lost in a sea of my own confusion
you would see me as ordinary
i would see me as gone
but there was never an honest word
seas of faces and crowded images
sandy features and messed up paint
dripping from side to side with wetness
from the flooding rain of my memory
erasing you, others, everyone, me
away, away
away from this room in my soul
disfiguring names and faces
configuring emptiness
bright city lights
they surround me
i slowly learn how to breathe
I wake up.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Dissolve
living and breathing happy endings
just a dream away
from where we started
like taking a coin
and tossing it up in the air
only to watch it fall back down
and catch it again
back to square one
where things stay somewhat the same
but lay there differently
like the toss had changed it whole
rush of air meeting with one side
force on the other
all slowly coming down to a standstill
the beginning
thats all we need to know
because in the end
we'll always return to where we started;
nothingness
just a dream away
from where we started
like taking a coin
and tossing it up in the air
only to watch it fall back down
and catch it again
back to square one
where things stay somewhat the same
but lay there differently
like the toss had changed it whole
rush of air meeting with one side
force on the other
all slowly coming down to a standstill
the beginning
thats all we need to know
because in the end
we'll always return to where we started;
nothingness
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
i somehow found you again
cracks of easy steps
round crooked bends and up broken ledges
where i've become my own stranger
but when i did find you
vast oceans stood roaring between us
waves drowned my cries towards you
carrying my voice far out into the wild
and when my last breath was used
you still had not turned
so i stood my ground
and the oceans turned to mountains
mountains to grassland
grassland to deserts
and you never heard me
for a second i felt so free
and i fell through the cracklines of the neverchanging distance
i had already lost myself
cracks of easy steps
round crooked bends and up broken ledges
where i've become my own stranger
but when i did find you
vast oceans stood roaring between us
waves drowned my cries towards you
carrying my voice far out into the wild
and when my last breath was used
you still had not turned
so i stood my ground
and the oceans turned to mountains
mountains to grassland
grassland to deserts
and you never heard me
for a second i felt so free
and i fell through the cracklines of the neverchanging distance
i had already lost myself
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Love Is The Greatest Illusion
we are two cars colliding
heading different ways
we are sidewalks and road signs
a perfect company
we are beaches and traffic
looming, intertwined
we are two foreign languages
conversing with a flame
we are two hills of snow and sand
caving in to sink
we are faces of love and shame
no compatibility
we are stars, we are sunrise
together in the sky
we build bridges and burn rivers
scalding the ones we love
heading different ways
we are sidewalks and road signs
a perfect company
we are beaches and traffic
looming, intertwined
we are two foreign languages
conversing with a flame
we are two hills of snow and sand
caving in to sink
we are faces of love and shame
no compatibility
we are stars, we are sunrise
together in the sky
we build bridges and burn rivers
scalding the ones we love
Friday, May 29, 2009
"I Love You"
many things i will never understand
when we feel as if valleys are forming
where there once was green flat land
mountains and hard stones conforming
many things i will not know
when rivers flow past us at such a speed
which pushes us to follow
that never showed a need
some things i try to learn
how you make the sun dance and sing
and at the end of the day i yearn
for the music only you can bring
something i cant live without
you are like an oxygen supply
and waiting for rain in hopeless drought
just when i think i can fly
and soon this world goes too soon
and it finally collapses all around me
i hear you tell me what you said last june
that made me all i wanted to be
when we feel as if valleys are forming
where there once was green flat land
mountains and hard stones conforming
many things i will not know
when rivers flow past us at such a speed
which pushes us to follow
that never showed a need
some things i try to learn
how you make the sun dance and sing
and at the end of the day i yearn
for the music only you can bring
something i cant live without
you are like an oxygen supply
and waiting for rain in hopeless drought
just when i think i can fly
and soon this world goes too soon
and it finally collapses all around me
i hear you tell me what you said last june
that made me all i wanted to be
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Sonnet 713
as it begins again, slowly reeling
walking in the misty light of the day
was where i heard the passing of healing
touching my face, rested upon to lay
the unsaid truths that the world is cast on
slowly fading away; too soon to see
or touch or realise that it has been gone
and it was receeding away to be
once again lost in the unreeling mourn
a small ripple from the mess of my mind
that had become softer than the moonlight
which so often appears too hard to find
through a web of silhouettes in the night
and i walked through the never-ending road
of events that seem bigger than my load.
walking in the misty light of the day
was where i heard the passing of healing
touching my face, rested upon to lay
the unsaid truths that the world is cast on
slowly fading away; too soon to see
or touch or realise that it has been gone
and it was receeding away to be
once again lost in the unreeling mourn
a small ripple from the mess of my mind
that had become softer than the moonlight
which so often appears too hard to find
through a web of silhouettes in the night
and i walked through the never-ending road
of events that seem bigger than my load.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Separation Ocean
well, look who's dying now
when you told me everything was
and miles across shoreline
the faultline cracked beneath me
and you told me time will catch up
showing me all around
the blackened illusion of
mid-west skies and my sleepless mondays
but you told me
that love is the greatest illusion
we pretended not to see
well, look who's dying now
when i told you everything was
when i didnt know how to love you anymore
i dont know how to live without you anymore
when you told me everything was
and miles across shoreline
the faultline cracked beneath me
and you told me time will catch up
showing me all around
the blackened illusion of
mid-west skies and my sleepless mondays
but you told me
that love is the greatest illusion
we pretended not to see
well, look who's dying now
when i told you everything was
when i didnt know how to love you anymore
i dont know how to live without you anymore
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Scream
searching for answers
in the most unexpected obvious places
is just what he needs
staying at home to find
a way in the increasingly confusing
images he passed
because she was too familiar
and somehow among the dunes
he had stumbled across her footsteps before
stumbling after something
he tried so hard to hide
leaving the only place he knew
is something that may happen
when she took him for that wild ride
of unexpected fantasy and dreams
that led him nowhere
and now he's trying to find
his way back home
and he's trying to figure out
exactly what she is
and exactly what she means
while she knows exactly what she's doing
in a thistle that is caught in her own lies
in the most unexpected obvious places
is just what he needs
staying at home to find
a way in the increasingly confusing
images he passed
because she was too familiar
and somehow among the dunes
he had stumbled across her footsteps before
stumbling after something
he tried so hard to hide
leaving the only place he knew
is something that may happen
when she took him for that wild ride
of unexpected fantasy and dreams
that led him nowhere
and now he's trying to find
his way back home
and he's trying to figure out
exactly what she is
and exactly what she means
while she knows exactly what she's doing
in a thistle that is caught in her own lies
Monday, May 18, 2009
Lines
centuries fold away, certain like waves
never changing shapes of shorelines; calmness
highlighting days gone by; sung within caves
of elevating thoughts: breathing sweetness.
i'd settle myself before the sunset
to glimpse at the sun i have never seen.
days turn cold, nights unreeling stuck on nets
there was only you; oh where have you been
as i search down vast crevices of cold
looking for even words to replace you
hiding in places where my heart was sold
i never realised what i had to do;
if my words soared as high as the heavens
as night reaches me, sunsets at seven.
never changing shapes of shorelines; calmness
highlighting days gone by; sung within caves
of elevating thoughts: breathing sweetness.
i'd settle myself before the sunset
to glimpse at the sun i have never seen.
days turn cold, nights unreeling stuck on nets
there was only you; oh where have you been
as i search down vast crevices of cold
looking for even words to replace you
hiding in places where my heart was sold
i never realised what i had to do;
if my words soared as high as the heavens
as night reaches me, sunsets at seven.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Hello
i feel.
supposedly happy.
thats how im supposed to feel.
what do i really feel?
i dont know.
because i already know
that sinking iceberg
has just reached the bottom
and i might drown.
im happy supposedly.
or at least i try to be.
sinking and floating and tipping
all at the same time.
There. Are. No. Words. For. This.
supposedly happy.
thats how im supposed to feel.
what do i really feel?
i dont know.
because i already know
that sinking iceberg
has just reached the bottom
and i might drown.
im happy supposedly.
or at least i try to be.
sinking and floating and tipping
all at the same time.
There. Are. No. Words. For. This.
Friday, May 8, 2009
Look Back
months written in
and gone like years flew by
steady with every pulse
that gives way underground
and finds us trapped in oblivion
all the silent stones around us
pleading for signs of dignity
and not to be crushed and buried
though we may not be strong
we are gullible and frail
all around us might give way
any second, to what
we'll never know
from deep under the crystal waters
we still try to make our way through
and while keeping pace with our breathing
i looked down
long edges of clocks
fighting waves of time
and gone like years flew by
steady with every pulse
that gives way underground
and finds us trapped in oblivion
all the silent stones around us
pleading for signs of dignity
and not to be crushed and buried
though we may not be strong
we are gullible and frail
all around us might give way
any second, to what
we'll never know
from deep under the crystal waters
we still try to make our way through
and while keeping pace with our breathing
i looked down
long edges of clocks
fighting waves of time
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Lucid Dreaming
and there was
a ringing in my ear
which of silence
offended the golden bells
in that of disorder
a gentle calm filled my soul
and taken a place
where my crossroads meet
you were everything
i ever imagined
everything i could possibly
have, have it all
and there was
the running made walking
pacing and fast
never pausing, never resting
in that of calmness
somewhere lost in my mind
but there have been
traces of you throughout
you were everything
you are everything
i could possibly need
and i want it all
a ringing in my ear
which of silence
offended the golden bells
in that of disorder
a gentle calm filled my soul
and taken a place
where my crossroads meet
you were everything
i ever imagined
everything i could possibly
have, have it all
and there was
the running made walking
pacing and fast
never pausing, never resting
in that of calmness
somewhere lost in my mind
but there have been
traces of you throughout
you were everything
you are everything
i could possibly need
and i want it all
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Evergreen
it was of the turmoil of the grass
that set loosely on high ends
reeling and unreeling wayward
the movement of unending records
of nights and lights so strong
no one was capable of seeing them
and it was through the progression
that regression of forward
was slowly turned around
with the reeling of the thread
unending pending
with the unreeling of the thread
unending visions
with the reeling of the thread
unending thoughts
with the unreeling of the thread
unending life
that set loosely on high ends
reeling and unreeling wayward
the movement of unending records
of nights and lights so strong
no one was capable of seeing them
and it was through the progression
that regression of forward
was slowly turned around
with the reeling of the thread
unending pending
with the unreeling of the thread
unending visions
with the reeling of the thread
unending thoughts
with the unreeling of the thread
unending life
Monday, April 20, 2009
Maps
it was her sadness that made her beautiful.
a beautiful multicoloured bud that never bloomed in spring.
her eyes told tales of the sea, her hair the scalded blackness.
in her ears music would ring, bells playing of disorder.
often among the cooling breezes, hard stones were conformed,
twisted and hardened from her sorrow.
and it formed wilderness and was desolate.
wind often takes its place in the plains of sand,
where the sand will whistle and sing
and tell of the sad song that had once ruled over them,
that of loneliness the cypress sings.
a beautiful multicoloured bud that never bloomed in spring.
her eyes told tales of the sea, her hair the scalded blackness.
in her ears music would ring, bells playing of disorder.
often among the cooling breezes, hard stones were conformed,
twisted and hardened from her sorrow.
and it formed wilderness and was desolate.
wind often takes its place in the plains of sand,
where the sand will whistle and sing
and tell of the sad song that had once ruled over them,
that of loneliness the cypress sings.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Blue
i drag on blue
blue for the autumn
blue for the sunset
blue for the day
blue, blue
it drags along
concrete caved in cement
sidewalks of untouched ugliness
roads of blackened stones
and blue continues
blue in the morning
blue for the warning
blue for the running
blue, blue
mystified, intensified
blue for the evening
blue for the moon
blue for the stars
blue for the sky
blue for the clouds
blue for the hills
blue for the grass
blue for the signs
blue for the storm
blue for the wind
blue, blue
i drag on blue
blue drags me along
along, along loneliness
vast distant lands
no one has ever seen
blue for the vastness
blue for the ugliness
blue for the whole world
i single out a point in the sky
and name it blue
blue for the autumn
blue for the sunset
blue for the day
blue, blue
it drags along
concrete caved in cement
sidewalks of untouched ugliness
roads of blackened stones
and blue continues
blue in the morning
blue for the warning
blue for the running
blue, blue
mystified, intensified
blue for the evening
blue for the moon
blue for the stars
blue for the sky
blue for the clouds
blue for the hills
blue for the grass
blue for the signs
blue for the storm
blue for the wind
blue, blue
i drag on blue
blue drags me along
along, along loneliness
vast distant lands
no one has ever seen
blue for the vastness
blue for the ugliness
blue for the whole world
i single out a point in the sky
and name it blue
Monday, April 13, 2009
Them
there is a drop
waiting for us
where victims would feel
like they are falling
down, in this way
and soon enough
there is the mass production
of hallucinating historians
among the rubble and gas chambers
now we're looking down at the wreckage
and wish it was wasted on us
but never really knew why
or how it actually felt
to be one of them
waiting for us
where victims would feel
like they are falling
down, in this way
and soon enough
there is the mass production
of hallucinating historians
among the rubble and gas chambers
now we're looking down at the wreckage
and wish it was wasted on us
but never really knew why
or how it actually felt
to be one of them
Monday, April 6, 2009
The Unreal
my heart is heavy
my mind; wild
and i feel like ive been
carried away
but i dont drift away
but float in doubt
torn and hurt by what you feel
that feeling thats never real
time and time again
when my body feels too weary
i settle back to floating
aimlessly among landscapes
that never ever existed
because in such a place
only you could exist
my mind; wild
and i feel like ive been
carried away
but i dont drift away
but float in doubt
torn and hurt by what you feel
that feeling thats never real
time and time again
when my body feels too weary
i settle back to floating
aimlessly among landscapes
that never ever existed
because in such a place
only you could exist
Sunday, March 29, 2009
The Painter
so it goes meandering forever
ever so forlorn
seeking for treasures it cant find
things it has once lost
but they're back again
taunting its memories
playfully grabbing it by the edge
pulling it from slipping back
among vast crevices of sharp cold
and so it sees
but does not really see
thinks it awknowledged
but now, it slips away
and gets in touch with its feelings
a mixture of sadness
a beautiful indescribable blue
that no one else can see
slate blue matches the horizon
elevation of the sky
as the orange tinges
staining the place i call home
ever so forlorn
seeking for treasures it cant find
things it has once lost
but they're back again
taunting its memories
playfully grabbing it by the edge
pulling it from slipping back
among vast crevices of sharp cold
and so it sees
but does not really see
thinks it awknowledged
but now, it slips away
and gets in touch with its feelings
a mixture of sadness
a beautiful indescribable blue
that no one else can see
slate blue matches the horizon
elevation of the sky
as the orange tinges
staining the place i call home
Friday, March 27, 2009
Undercurrent
two tides meet
clashing under the moonlight
someone, turn the stars off
for us, for everyone
for everything i've wanted
ever since we contacted
but that moment's gone now
buried beneath the surface
and now, the moonlight cant reach me
so i allow myself to sink
missing the current as it tides
concave, convex, complex
the stars slowly switch on again
and as they get brighter
they explode into shattered pieces
as i bend down on the shore to collect them
and look back at the sea
because ive missed the current again
clashing under the moonlight
someone, turn the stars off
for us, for everyone
for everything i've wanted
ever since we contacted
but that moment's gone now
buried beneath the surface
and now, the moonlight cant reach me
so i allow myself to sink
missing the current as it tides
concave, convex, complex
the stars slowly switch on again
and as they get brighter
they explode into shattered pieces
as i bend down on the shore to collect them
and look back at the sea
because ive missed the current again
Thursday, March 19, 2009
you'll keep running
bayshore is burning, burning
say a silent prayer
time is falling, falling
hands are shaking, shaking
because it never stops
no one was there, there
no one ever told you, told you
that the running never ends
bayshore is burning, burning
as the wind picked up, up
north wind blowing wayward
time to wake up, wake up
alarm of unending running, run
before they catch up with you
as we all burn, burn
ten feet underground, ground
tell me why the sky's grey
paint it black, black
i love you, you
your feet keep running
mid-light shifts your face
away from me, me
say a silent prayer
time is falling, falling
hands are shaking, shaking
because it never stops
no one was there, there
no one ever told you, told you
that the running never ends
bayshore is burning, burning
as the wind picked up, up
north wind blowing wayward
time to wake up, wake up
alarm of unending running, run
before they catch up with you
as we all burn, burn
ten feet underground, ground
tell me why the sky's grey
paint it black, black
i love you, you
your feet keep running
mid-light shifts your face
away from me, me
Monday, March 9, 2009
Free
i pull out a piece of sky
to match my heaven
because i never had a taste
of perfection or sanity
everything in this uncertain world
spiralling down to meet me
and its ever so often
in these cold nights of june
where i stop my thoughts mid wave
and pull out a piece of coral
to think about you
while a wild train of thoughts
rumble slowly by us
to match my heaven
because i never had a taste
of perfection or sanity
everything in this uncertain world
spiralling down to meet me
and its ever so often
in these cold nights of june
where i stop my thoughts mid wave
and pull out a piece of coral
to think about you
while a wild train of thoughts
rumble slowly by us
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Lullaby
i sit in stony silence
wondering what he's thinking
while a wild train of thoughts
rumble silently through my head
its all quiet now
and the world sleeps in blissful content
while i lie awake in echoing emptiness
and i wonder all the time
whatever you're thinking of
somewhere far from where i am
my mind wanders through
vast skylands of lowlands
bright skylines of old cities
passing ships of gold
the tracks never seem near to you
wherever my footprints go
yours vanish into the plains
the constant wind sweeping up your path
so i stop
and look around me
i am lost
with no one to follow
with no where to go
i feel the hollowness now
wondering what he's thinking
while a wild train of thoughts
rumble silently through my head
its all quiet now
and the world sleeps in blissful content
while i lie awake in echoing emptiness
and i wonder all the time
whatever you're thinking of
somewhere far from where i am
my mind wanders through
vast skylands of lowlands
bright skylines of old cities
passing ships of gold
the tracks never seem near to you
wherever my footprints go
yours vanish into the plains
the constant wind sweeping up your path
so i stop
and look around me
i am lost
with no one to follow
with no where to go
i feel the hollowness now
Monday, March 2, 2009
Never Remember
its hard to remember
the things you forgot
when all you've got is gone
to have a taste of perfection
and then you find you're left
without
why dont you tell me why
you left me early
tell me why
you're doing this
tell me why its so easy for you
when i thought you'd find me here
now the things you remember
you shouldn't forget
especially when they seem
further away than they actually are
why are you leaving this
alone
why dont you tell me why
you left too early
tell me why
im feeling this
tell me why its too hard for me
when you thought that i'd forget
oh, tell me why
tell me why i remember
tell me why
i cant seem to forget
tell me why
the bitterness crept in
waiting for its attack
tell me something
tell me something
remind me i forget
dont tell me something
dont tell me something
because soon i will forget
i'll tell you why
i will forget
because your perfection is gone
i'll tell you why
i will forget
because you will never remember
all the reminders falling around you
you'll never remember
why im here
you'll never remember
how much you mean to me
you'll never remember
you'll never remember
you'll never remember us
the things you forgot
when all you've got is gone
to have a taste of perfection
and then you find you're left
without
why dont you tell me why
you left me early
tell me why
you're doing this
tell me why its so easy for you
when i thought you'd find me here
now the things you remember
you shouldn't forget
especially when they seem
further away than they actually are
why are you leaving this
alone
why dont you tell me why
you left too early
tell me why
im feeling this
tell me why its too hard for me
when you thought that i'd forget
oh, tell me why
tell me why i remember
tell me why
i cant seem to forget
tell me why
the bitterness crept in
waiting for its attack
tell me something
tell me something
remind me i forget
dont tell me something
dont tell me something
because soon i will forget
i'll tell you why
i will forget
because your perfection is gone
i'll tell you why
i will forget
because you will never remember
all the reminders falling around you
you'll never remember
why im here
you'll never remember
how much you mean to me
you'll never remember
you'll never remember
you'll never remember us
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Flames
and i've learnt;
time to forget, time to live
time to really see
there was a fire in front of us
glowing so brightly before us
but we just never noticed
that our thoughts interfused; intervined
and we felt the same way
as we let the fire rage on
no longer glowing
just harmful
i have the urge to touch it;
to touch you
it as been so very long
since we have been here;
just the two of us
so im going to smile now
because i deserve to
and im going to walk away
because the flames have already burned me
time to forget, time to live
time to really see
there was a fire in front of us
glowing so brightly before us
but we just never noticed
that our thoughts interfused; intervined
and we felt the same way
as we let the fire rage on
no longer glowing
just harmful
i have the urge to touch it;
to touch you
it as been so very long
since we have been here;
just the two of us
so im going to smile now
because i deserve to
and im going to walk away
because the flames have already burned me
Friday, February 27, 2009
Provoked
silent pictures i paint
round the bends of an empty shipwreck
the wind colouring it grey again
while the water presses me to continue
blue to grey, grey to blue
until my mind is a blur
silent pictures i draw
my time will never be enough
with the wind re-painting the bleak landscape
of all the lost souls
and i wished i fell in love
i dont feel quite at home
as i count the newly drawn ship lights
and croon myself to sleep
edgeless waters pressing me to stay
round the bends of an empty shipwreck
the wind colouring it grey again
while the water presses me to continue
blue to grey, grey to blue
until my mind is a blur
silent pictures i draw
my time will never be enough
with the wind re-painting the bleak landscape
of all the lost souls
and i wished i fell in love
i dont feel quite at home
as i count the newly drawn ship lights
and croon myself to sleep
edgeless waters pressing me to stay
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Salt Lake
you stepped outside
winter breeze in your smile
and typically looked down
among the vast creek of wintertime
and the plains move so slowly
as the night grows old
while you shiver and look down
into the dark underground
its just like you
to never look up at the vast sky
to ever see what is around you
but look down
at the superficial shadows and reflections
of unidentified things
while the valley stirs restlessly
and the wind ripples across the skylit grass;
a wild train of thoughts
near the cold water
as you shiver
and i never found a way there
into the coldness of your mind
of the saltwater lake
the never changing restlessness
winter breeze in your smile
and typically looked down
among the vast creek of wintertime
and the plains move so slowly
as the night grows old
while you shiver and look down
into the dark underground
its just like you
to never look up at the vast sky
to ever see what is around you
but look down
at the superficial shadows and reflections
of unidentified things
while the valley stirs restlessly
and the wind ripples across the skylit grass;
a wild train of thoughts
near the cold water
as you shiver
and i never found a way there
into the coldness of your mind
of the saltwater lake
the never changing restlessness
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Dancing on Air
we danced on air
the whole night through
the stars didnt seem to care
my heart is like
a faucet that leaks slowly
and i run out of oxygen
while we dance on air
the whole night through
the moon seemed to shine
my tangled mind
doesnt know where to go
oxygen supply cutting short
as i fall
and we dance on air
the whole day through
the sun soaring above us
my heart is like
a flightless bird
hesitating at your touch
so we dance on air
as i opened up to ways
ways that didnt seem so hard
the whole night through
the stars didnt seem to care
my heart is like
a faucet that leaks slowly
and i run out of oxygen
while we dance on air
the whole night through
the moon seemed to shine
my tangled mind
doesnt know where to go
oxygen supply cutting short
as i fall
and we dance on air
the whole day through
the sun soaring above us
my heart is like
a flightless bird
hesitating at your touch
so we dance on air
as i opened up to ways
ways that didnt seem so hard
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Break
i count my breaths
staring at the wall
pointlessly reaching
for something thats not there
a million lights
that light up the room
dimming over time
through the glass that was once transparent
raised against its will
forlorn and helpless
and you stare at me
from the glass
i dont know how long
how long is soon
how long is now
how long is forever
until the autumn dust settles
and we see even clearer than before
restlessly looking for the long-gone sun
that protected our thoughts once
until the glass finally breaks
staring at the wall
pointlessly reaching
for something thats not there
a million lights
that light up the room
dimming over time
through the glass that was once transparent
raised against its will
forlorn and helpless
and you stare at me
from the glass
i dont know how long
how long is soon
how long is now
how long is forever
until the autumn dust settles
and we see even clearer than before
restlessly looking for the long-gone sun
that protected our thoughts once
until the glass finally breaks
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Paperthin
bitter oblivion;
it stretches
casting the walls thin
because the air is tight
and fighting becomes
a constant struggle;
desperation
while in the midst of
scattered thoughts
connections are still there
winding their way in between
veins that shone like rainbows
while the paperthin walls
slowly fall all around
cemented, vague
deperation rising slowly through
that conformed lenses
concave; convex
moderated
it stretches
casting the walls thin
because the air is tight
and fighting becomes
a constant struggle;
desperation
while in the midst of
scattered thoughts
connections are still there
winding their way in between
veins that shone like rainbows
while the paperthin walls
slowly fall all around
cemented, vague
deperation rising slowly through
that conformed lenses
concave; convex
moderated
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Stolen
and i'll admit
summer balcony
rustling leaves
stinging nettles
i was yours
and i forgave
pain, torture, interference
endurance
and i forget
ways we opened up
ways i loved you
ways you came alive
and i have lied
early morning
that creeps against your skin
stole away
deep into the night;
eternity
and i have learnt
creek by the morning
escape by night
air rushing to meet the sky
left by the burning
exploding in our hearts' black box
summer balcony
rustling leaves
stinging nettles
i was yours
and i forgave
pain, torture, interference
endurance
and i forget
ways we opened up
ways i loved you
ways you came alive
and i have lied
early morning
that creeps against your skin
stole away
deep into the night;
eternity
and i have learnt
creek by the morning
escape by night
air rushing to meet the sky
left by the burning
exploding in our hearts' black box
Friday, January 30, 2009
Rustling Settle
the morning shines of summer air
misty quivers
and the summer that is the sun
all gently through
and peering through empty gaps
like a curious child
filling spaces in between brokenness
where it was once broken
was now filled
not fixed
and tell us why
the summer air flew all the way
and left us all wondering
of this new sensation
like the tingling of the skin
unpleasant; our long lost touch
of the bitterness that crept in;
ice
we suck in the summer air
now fading
dust settling
tell us why
summer flew by us
like the rustlings
and it settled
not contently
and dwells only in the light
of setting suns
misty quivers
and the summer that is the sun
all gently through
and peering through empty gaps
like a curious child
filling spaces in between brokenness
where it was once broken
was now filled
not fixed
and tell us why
the summer air flew all the way
and left us all wondering
of this new sensation
like the tingling of the skin
unpleasant; our long lost touch
of the bitterness that crept in;
ice
we suck in the summer air
now fading
dust settling
tell us why
summer flew by us
like the rustlings
and it settled
not contently
and dwells only in the light
of setting suns
Friday, January 23, 2009
Closing Distances
if thoughts could soar
as far as the west
i would elevate my thoughts
as high as the heavens
and as far as the east
because reaching to you
is as far as i can ever imagine
closer than i can ever get
and i'd settle my thoughts
on the horizon
to catch a glimpse
of the sun i never saw
and everything in this world is temporary
never changing; never fading
because i see sunsets in your eyes
and the never fading rain in your heart
as far as the west
i would elevate my thoughts
as high as the heavens
and as far as the east
because reaching to you
is as far as i can ever imagine
closer than i can ever get
and i'd settle my thoughts
on the horizon
to catch a glimpse
of the sun i never saw
and everything in this world is temporary
never changing; never fading
because i see sunsets in your eyes
and the never fading rain in your heart
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Running
people talk, whisper slowly in my ear
and walk down the streets
they pass, their lonely hearts
cant feel what i feel for you tonight
so i sit here and wait
and i'll run right back to the start
i'll run right back to the start
just to see you again
i dont worry about tomorrow
i just worry about today
if my feelings would change
if i would be
ordinary
like the people
with their empty hearts
stopping to pass me by
stopping to whisper
stopping to feel what i feel
so i sit here and wait
i'll run back to the start
i'll run right back to the start
we're gonna run right back to the start
and walk down the streets
they pass, their lonely hearts
cant feel what i feel for you tonight
so i sit here and wait
and i'll run right back to the start
i'll run right back to the start
just to see you again
i dont worry about tomorrow
i just worry about today
if my feelings would change
if i would be
ordinary
like the people
with their empty hearts
stopping to pass me by
stopping to whisper
stopping to feel what i feel
so i sit here and wait
i'll run back to the start
i'll run right back to the start
we're gonna run right back to the start
Friday, January 9, 2009
Balance
if the world keeps spinning
and if im still living
it wont be right if we're not there
but if the world stops spinning
and my heart is hanging there
it will just be me
and if the world kept spinning
and we're both living
we'd be so different;
two separate hearts
but if the world stopped breathing
and if i stopped living
where will you be?
and if im still living
it wont be right if we're not there
but if the world stops spinning
and my heart is hanging there
it will just be me
and if the world kept spinning
and we're both living
we'd be so different;
two separate hearts
but if the world stopped breathing
and if i stopped living
where will you be?
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Weave Ivory
curl up your hands
and tighten your grip
whats yours
will never be yours again
because wounds mixed with salt
they heal incompletely
fall in line with your heartbeat faster
i swear i'll keep the pace
fall in line where your heart moves closer
i swear i'll fall with you
keep the ivory in line
weave the ivory till its mine
weave through your heart
till its more complete
completely incomplete
fall in line with the sound of your breathing
i swear i'll follow behind
fall in line to your heart's settling
i swear i'll stay beside you
keep the ivory in line
weave the ivory till its mine
and tighten your grip
whats yours
will never be yours again
because wounds mixed with salt
they heal incompletely
fall in line with your heartbeat faster
i swear i'll keep the pace
fall in line where your heart moves closer
i swear i'll fall with you
keep the ivory in line
weave the ivory till its mine
weave through your heart
till its more complete
completely incomplete
fall in line with the sound of your breathing
i swear i'll follow behind
fall in line to your heart's settling
i swear i'll stay beside you
keep the ivory in line
weave the ivory till its mine
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Pieces
it gets so confusing
that i dont know where to turn
where to go
what to say
i've tried
i've tried to move on
tried to cry less
tried to stop loving
but the pieces of my heart will never fit
again
that i dont know where to turn
where to go
what to say
i've tried
i've tried to move on
tried to cry less
tried to stop loving
but the pieces of my heart will never fit
again
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