Drown In

She's so different from me.
When I'm hiding in the silence, she's sprinting across the madness, just like wildfire spreading across the bushland.
When I scream, she watches me from afar, drinking in the silence that I produce for her.
When the stars shine bright for her, I don't see any light in the sky at all.
She walks along the corridor; I sprint in between shadows.
She would just tell me a few words; i cry out at her, screaming out, breaking the balance in our distant worlds.
I never knew pain till she came along. My opposite; i'm hers too.
Now i'm so lost, drowning in my own confusion, in my own resistance, and i just wish she would come back and take my place instead. After all, she could support herself and her family; i cant even support myself.
The rain and dread come. And i know she's already back in her world, drifting upon a cloud, maybe sinking in happiness.
After all, we are opposites.

Names in the Sand/ The Rising Tide

and you draw lines
carved upon the sand
throwing the stick you used into the waves
watching it float away
and watching the water creep up to the lines
of your name
to wash it away

but a name in the sand
can never last
but casting a look
on the rain and grey
it darkens your deepest fears

just like fallen hopes
being washed away
by the rising tide

and from the earth
we become ash
and get carried away
by the rising tide

all through the endless summer

cuz all you needed
was the names in the sand
to remain there
while you effortlessly collapsed
into a heap of unborn fears
and unborn tears

Angles of Time

be the angle of time for me
cuz when the angles change, i do

or maybe i just wanted time to stop for me;
to find me

i really wanted to, maybe
just relief the pain of the past

and angle time for me

i cant say i stopped
to catch my breath

cuz the candle burnt out for me
too soon, too late, too unexpectedly

its like trying to compose a song
without lyrics

just like living my life without you

be the angle of time for me
cuz when time stops, i do

i stop
just for a moment
and go back
to uncover a heartbeat
from the burnt out flame
to bring it back to where it belongs

and to start another flame

Unity

the ones that were gone
before we began

before WE came

and just another heartbeat
heard from miles away

lying on the floor
lying through your teeth

what's new?

just more painless efforts
of crying

less and less
combined with the shallow minds

just all crashed
and they fell to the ground

Facade

will you be my illusion?

every mask
tells a story

cuz everything happens
under a mask

i dont know
how its going to end

maybe i dont need an illusion
i already am 1

and all thats been happening
remains an illusion

i wasnt really there
neither were you

its just facade
or fate
that we happened to pass by
each other

and luck that we saw
what was happening through each other's eyes

Cypress

even if there's a crack
down the line
something must go

you know its not going to be me

i just dont understand
why we keep fighting

just like pressing yourself
against your own words

maybe i was wrong
maybe?

there's no maybe
no "what ifs"

just lies

Time Caught Standing Still

maybe im just weak
or too scared

leaves outside swaying
my heart sways with them

board games
lifting the burden off my chest

one mystery solved

my life
all based into one square
too normal
all to normal for me

or too many things piled up
into one
making it complicated

and maybe
stumbling through the vines
i see the sky
but not the sun

and the shadow of the grey
will embrace the openess
of the blue sky
in the shadow of the day

and my heart
thrown into a pile of dead leaves
swaying in the breeze

or words from a pen
just flowing freely
and thrown into words
jumbled up, messy
all raking through the burns
to just find a sparkle of warmth

and maybe
a heart can skip a beat

Maker and Keeper of Days

i just want you to come home

maybe back to where i was
where time stopped
and tied together with angles

but where crooked veins run deep
where time stops
the reasons for time
or just a hope in time

it didnt save me
it saved you

now you travel
where crooked veins run deep
im still somewhere

i want you to come back
to the middle of somewhere
where i always was

redemption spinning wildly
cant find me

coz it found you

The Undertaker/Death Reaper

take me away again
cuz maybe you feel too little
and i, too much

could difference dissolve?

i really wish it could
right now

but maybe you make me see
or just hear for one day
when my eyes (ears) are closed

reaping life from me, maybe

its still you, its still me

maybe its still ok

its just that maybe, i just want to feel again
and you can, i cant

or is it the other way round?

Hundred

these lyrics are to the song Hundred by the fray. very meaningful.

~HUNDRED~

the how i cant recall
but im staring at
what once was the wall
separating east and west
now they meet amidst
the broad daylight

so this is where you are
and this is where i am
somewhere between
unsure and a hundred

its hard i must confess
im banking on the rest to clear away
cause we have spoken everything
everything short of i love you

you right where you are
from right where i am
somewhere between
unsure and a hundred

and who's to say its wrong
and who's to say that its not right
where we should be from now

so this is where you are
and this is where i am
so this is where you are
and this is where i've been
somewhere between
unsure and a hundred

Crossfade

you tend to hurry
i tend to run

and we tend to fade

and sometimes i cant believe
how things happened
just in the spur of a moment

late afternoon moon
tendency to forget
to cross and to fade
stillness of the night

the bay waters are still
not a ripple, not a sound

except for the sound of my breathing